Not Okay Lyrics

I wake up tired, I go to sleep the same
Another day I couldn't even name
The mirror shows a face I don't know
Just someone I don't wanna be anymore
The silence hits me like a weight
Every breath just feels too late
I try to feel something again
But everything just fades to grey
I don't remember how it felt
To be alive inside myself
Every thought just drags me down
Like I'm already underground

I'm not okay
I'm not alright
I'm wide awake every single night
I try to feel but there's just pain
Just empty eyes and numb inside my veins
I'm not okay
Just let me break
There's nothing left for me to save
I'm still right here but I'm gone
I'm breathing but I'm not alive at all

I hear my voice inside my head
Repeating things I wish were dead
Every word cuts deeper now
But I don't even react somehow
The world keeps moving, I stand still
No direction, no more will
I lost the fire, lost the light
Now I just disappear at night
I used to fight, I used to care
Now I just feel like I'm not there
Like I'm a ghost inside my skin
Watching everything cave in

I'm not okay
I'm not alright
I'm wide awake every single night
I try to feel but there's just pain
Just empty eyes and numb inside my veins
I'm not okay
Just let me break
There's nothing left for me to save
I'm still right here but I'm gone
I'm breathing but I'm not alive at all

And I can't escape
And I can't escape
Everything I hate
Everything I hate

I'm not okay
I'm not alright
I'm wide awake every single night
I try to feel but there's just pain
Just empty eyes and numb inside my veins
I'm not okay
Just let me break
There's nothing left for me to save
I'm still right here but I'm gone
I'm breathing but I'm not alive at all